Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Vacation?

Vacation may or may not mean any of the following:

- Homework
- Reading a book
- Talking to friends
- SLEEP
- Eating outside
- Drawing
- Photography
- OUTINGS
- Studying
- Blogging
- Watching 'funny' videos
- 'Soundtrip'
- Photoshop
- PARTIES
-  More sleep
- Staying up late
- Waking up late
- Doing things late
- CRAMMING
- More time for sports
- Tweeting
- Drinking
And the lastly:
- Staring at a blank wall with deep thoughts

Robots and Dreams :O

I want to live until I see robots being like humans. Robots working, commuting, eating (?), and so much more. Wouldn't that be cool? I see it in almost all the modern films, like robots conquering the world or something. I bet we would all look like lazy ass people when robots would be like us. Robots doing what we should do.

Aside from wanting that to happen, I keep having the strangest dreams (I ever had) these days. The other day, I had a dream about going to Balete Drive and a white lady just stands there beside me. Creepy... I also had a dream about being in a maze then when I finish the maze, the maze starts over. And last night, I had 4 dreams (#wow)

D-1
My mom was reading my blog. She then questions why I put all my problems here. She gets sad because I wouldn't tell her why then dream ends.

D-2
I had a dream about Tony Park (#wow). It's about him liking someone (*cough cough*) but he couldn't tell her his feelings. I help him in exchange for Korean lessons. The girl gets mad at me because it turns out she actually likes Tony (*cough cough*), Then blah blah blah. Tony ends up telling her his feelings and we become good friends after.

D-3
The dream was about me dying. I just wake up in a silent room, and it was very dark. Not much actually, because later on I die.

D-4
All I know is that the fourth one was scary. Can't remember much of it, sorry.

Sooooo, those were the strange dreams I had. Not strange because I dream about strange stuff everyday, not much of a biggie. (hehehe)

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

I'm trying to make a song. And it's not going like what I want it to go. I need more time? Inspiration? I don't know. I just want to make a song and try and record it. Why not? New things are always worth a shot.

Christmas and New Year

Hi. Christmas has been great, I guess. Oh and I'm not planning to celebrate New Year like the way I used to. I don't want to see and hear fireworks. I don't want to see people jumping. I don't want to hear people celebrating. I don't want to inhale the smell of fireworks. I simply don't want it. I'd rather look up and see the moon, the clouds, and the stars (I hope). I'd want to inhale 'simple' air. I'd want to see people casually walking or sitting. I'd want people to stay 'quiet'. I just want to celebrate things normally.

I've finished Catching Fire a few days ago. And since I've got no gadget to be busy with, I would want to read a book. I have something to stay up all night to, and I get to make my ideas---expand? I can't find the right word, but it's something like that.

Reading books for me, is now a hobby. I used to hate to see tons of words in just a single page (*cough* Dictionaries *cough*). I want my books to have pictures, but now, I'd rather doodle my thoughts in another paper. Am I making sense?

Monday, December 22, 2014

A Story

So, I found this story in my tablet and I find it funny. I thought, "Why not share it here?" And here we have it! I can't promise this'll be great, but I tried :) *kind of based on a true story (other parts were added to make it a bit longer)*

Untitled



POV of Boy

As I went out of the library, I closed the door gently and I saw her standing right there, in front of me. I didn’t know how to react because she always runs away whenever I’m around or whenever she sees me. I finally closed the door and she looked up. Our eyes met, it was either for a split second or a couple of seconds, I wasn’t sure. She was on phone, most probably talking with someone, and she was also smiling. A smile or a laugh, I don’t know, but she looked happy. Her friends were around, but she was nearer to two girls and a boy. Is he making her laugh? Or was it all of them making her laugh? But she was also on phone, maybe it was the person she was talking to who was making her laugh, I’m not sure. She looked away and started talking to her friends again, and as much as I want to stay here and look at her, I continued walking away.

POV of Girl

We’re having trouble with what we’re going to do, since one of our group mate went away. So, here I am desperately wanting him to answer the call only to discover that he might not answer because he doesn’t know I have his phone number. Now I’m trying to call his little sister, hoping that she will actually answer my call. While waiting, my other group mates are cracking jokes and I laugh along because their jokes are funny. And then I notice the library door open, it cracked open and I see him standing there. We made eye contact, funny right? I usually run away from him, even if he was thousands of meters away or when I hear his voice, I just run. It’s weird, or should I say, I’m weird. But now that I’m used to it, I have no problem with doing it. Now, it’s really weird. I looked away and I saw him walk away.

POV of Author
As he walked away from her, he had thousands of thoughts in his head. It was either about her, or simply about her. He had no choice, all he wanted to know was what was making her smile, and he was curious, so curious that he would most probably kill thousands of cats. His thoughts, oh his thoughts, they were countless, so countless the word infinite is way too small. He wanted to go back and ask her why she was smiling, and how he regretted walking away from her.

Meanwhile, she also had thoughts running through her head. She wonders how he isn’t getting tired of running through her mind, she knows it’s corny, but you couldn’t help it when you’re in love. When you’re in love, it’s just you and your loved one, right now, that’s all she thinks of. She wanted to tell him that she loves him, but the mere fact that he may not like her back is painful, so painful nothing could measure the pain. She hasn’t experienced it, and she doesn’t want to experience it, she would never bother to experience it.

Now, he’s just a few feet away from her, he’s thinking, “It’s now or never”. Never to hope that this would fail, all he wanted to do was to run away, he was scared. Though he wasn’t sure of what he was scared of, he actually just wanted to let her know he loves her.

She knew that he was behind her, it was just an instinct. Just one of the things you may learn in martial arts. She doesn’t want to see him. She fears that’ll she’ll fall more- twice, thrice, or four times. She doesn’t like the feeling. Her body heating up so bad, her eyes staring at every other corner, her words being all twisted up, and more. She hates it, but right now, she can’t run away from him.


As she felt him going close to her, she took a deep breath and turned around.

-END-

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Quarter Exams :(

Haiiii! I can't believe tomorrow is the start of the Quarter Exams~ Everything's happening so fast! I still can't process it, and it's killing meeee T T. Aside from those, I've been listening to Sam Smith for the past few days. His voice is killing me----literally. As weird as it would sound, I want to cry when he sings (T>T).

Aside from Sam Smith, something (more like someone) is killing me (not literally). Anddddd I don't feel like saying who it is, but the lad's a friend of mine. HAHA. Should I still need--- HAHA~~ Whatever it takes to make myself un confused, I'd do it~ yeah. :(


Anyhow, I've got no more to say (my blog is just sad), so I shall go! To whenever I'd update (most probably during the Christmas Break), au revoir~

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Untitled

Ed Sheeran - I'm A Mess

Oh, I'm a mess right now

Inside out
Searching for a sweet surrender
But this is not the end

I can't work it out
How going through the motions
Going through us

And, oh, I've known it for the longest time

And all of my hopes
All of my words
Are all over written on the signs
When you're on my road
Walking me home, home, home, home, home

See the flames inside my eyes

It burns so bright I want to feel your love, no
Easy baby maybe I'm a liar
But for tonight I wanna fall in love
And put your faith in my stomach

I messed up this time

Late last night
Drinking to suppress devotion
With fingers intertwined

I can't shake this feeling now

We're going through the motions
Hoping you'd stop

And though I've only caused you pain,

You know but all of my words will always be low
Although all the lies we spoke
When you're on my road
Walking me home, home, home, home, home

See the flames inside my eyes

It burns so bright I wanna feel your love, no
Easy baby maybe I'm a liar
But for tonight I wanna fall in love
And put your faith in my stomach

And for how long I love my lover

For how long I love my lover
And now, now, for how long, long I love my lover
Now, now, for how long, long I love my lover

Now, now, for how long, long I love my lover (and I feel loved)

For how long, long I love my lover
I feel it all over now, now and I feel loved
For how long, long I love my lover
Feel it all over now, now, and I feel loved
For how long, long I love my lover
Now, now, for how long, long I love my lover
Feel it all over now
For how long I love my lover
Now now
For how long, long I love my lover

Friday, December 5, 2014

SLEEP

Bonjour! Today I realized that I need more sleep. But I sleep at 11 PM (weekdays), isn't that early? Oh well, I guess I should TRY sleeping earlier. Can someone define what early is? haha.

I almost fell asleep during class time. What's worse is that it's Science class. One of the subjects I need to be better at. I was already shaking my head since I can't take it. Luckily, I didn't get to sleep! YAY! I had to slap myself to be un-sleepy. I have no idea on why that happened, but, it just did (xD). I guess I felt sleepy 'cause I drank soup. It's been a long time since I've drank soup, so maybe-- I don't know. Speaking of soup, I heard that hot water and salt could be soup. Well, could it?


Aside from those, I have nothing else to say. Until next time! Au revoir! :)

Thursday, December 4, 2014

Dark Zone

Hi. What's happening? I've been out of this world and I'm just hanging out in the Dark Zone lately. Honestly, I don't know what's going on inside me. All I know is that I'm confused and depressed. I want to get out of the Dark Zone, but it just likes keeping me in there. Is it something that I should hate or love?

The Dark Zone is simply sadness. It's very negative, that once you get in there, I assure you it's hard to go back. Usually, you can't get out anymore, it depends upon the person. I've been there for way too long and I just realized I wanted to get out. Do I? I'm not even sure :(


Things just get me so sad and it gets stuck in me. It gets so stuck that I can't take it out. Annoying, yes, but I don't know. I don't know what to do, what to say, and everything else.


I'm losing my focus! Is it because of the time I've spent in here? Am I thinking about darkness all the time? I don't know what to do with life anymore.


I guess this will be it for now. I'll just die, brb.