A Little Hope and Pain

I don't take photography class, so sorry

I've just spent a few minutes staring at-----a spider. I've noticed that it's been there for quite a time and I'm wondering, what is it doing? It's just hanging down from the ceiling and it's looking quite dead. The spider is just moving because of the air that the fan is giving. I find it really weird and interesting.

A thought came across my mind and it's pretty much stuck in there for a few minutes. Why is no one else from it's kind caring for it? It seems like no one cares that this spider is dead or if this spider is in trouble. I'm wondering if this spider needs help or anything and it tries to get attention for help but no one is coming. Or this spider already 'killed itself' because no one cares for it. It seems painfully wrong and right at the same time. If I was the spider, I would actually do the same.

But what if someone does care for you? What if there were other spiders who actually cared for you and that they were trying to look for help, but you just killed yourself? That would actually make the pain more painful. You could have waited but you just didn't. You ended it right there, while everyone scrambles to look for help.

Then again, what if they didn't care? What if they didn't look for help because you were a burden or they simply didn't care? Would that make you right to end it there, because waiting for 'help' would make the agony longer? That I guess would make what you did, 'worth it'. If you prolonged the agony, it would be like adding a tiny bit of water into fire. Let us say that you are the fire and the water is pain, it's like killing yourself softly. Instead of adding all the water, you keep dropping little splashes into yourself (fire) and it kills you every time you add a drop.

I feel sorry if no other spider cares for this spider. It's like a family member not caring for you. So what if you're a burden? Family is family.They don't love you? Well at least let them know you love them, because everything might change after that. I'm not saying it will, but maybe a little hope would do. A little hope and pain.