Project

Bonjour! Got nothing to write about! haha. Projects are everywhere! But a project I am super dooper excited for is the Mandarin project! WE'RE MAKING A MOVIE AGAIN! YAHOOOOO!!! Yehhh! Party party! *dances to techno music*

Anyhow! Making a video for a project just excites me. We go to houses and shoot there (not literally shoot though), and we have fun. Though sometimes we take too long to shoot a scene and it's getting late, of course we get into a bad mood and rush things. Life's not easy, you know! But, it's okay! We still get great quality work, hahah!

I have to go now! This might be my last update for this week, until next week, goodbaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

Nothing Great

Hello. Today, nothing good happened. But if you insist, the only 'good' thing was laughing.

I was worried with whatever bad thing might happen (from my thousands of bad possibility choiced) today. Being me, there will never be a time when I will stop thinking about the possibilities of me either getting hit by a random car, getting hit by a random bullet, get bitten by a dog, trip while the cars zoom past you, or a random person killing me. Oh well, I think this is how I should live- can't wait for what will happen, I guess.

Aside from that? Nothing else. Today was Report Card giving but I have no idea on what my grades are. I don't think they will be high like how I wished, but- oh well. Not all wishes come true. How unfair life is towards me.

I have no idea on what to write here. But I will go already, it's because I'll be leaving at 3:00 AM to go to a far place. Bye~

Nosebleed

Heyaaa! So I'm going to talk about nosebleeds. What's up with nosebleeds (get it? hehe)? As far as I could remember- which is not a lot - I've never had one. I think it's pretty weird because everyone else I know had their noses bleed. Absolutely have no idea, hahaha. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing, but because of that, I kind of feel abnormal. I don't know if feeling abnormal because of that is bad or good... but I don't know! I'm not sure of my emotions!! I really need some hospital or something.

Based on my friends' nosebleeds, it looks really creepy and dangerous! AND THAT'S WHAT I LIKE! Oh yes! I'm absolutely crazy! I'm a sadist, a masochist, and a pessimist! MY LIFE'S SO NEGATIVE! Party party!!! Woot woot! hehe!

I'll end it here because I might get a nosebleed. heheheheheh! Au revoir!! :D

What's Happening?

Hi. What's happening? It's been so long... hehe! I think I'm going crazy, it's just that I don't know what I'm going crazy on! I don't know, life's been unfair to me during the break. *sigh* Whenever I get something I want, there's always a something in exchange. Actually, even if I don't get something, there's this consequence I have to face. It's just weird. Anyhow, I want to know what's happening to you guys? :)

A Letter (Short Parts)

A few days ago, I decided to make a letter. It was for three people I've grown to love. Let's name them A, B, and C.
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A, I knew this person for more than a year. This person, we had conflicts and all those, but we still love each other.

B, this person could have been my first ever best friend. We share a lot in common and I don't know why I can't have this person as my best friend.

C, we only became close during this break. See how amazing this is? I love this person even if I don't know much about C.
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The letter contained a lot of my feelings. I didn't know what to do and I didn't know who to share my feelings with, so I shared it to them.
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I'm just too serious for them, I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm just destroying their happiness. Why do I feel like this?
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I cried myself to sleep after I wrote that letter. I really made myself wake up late, so I wouldn't see their messages. I'm sure that they'll be bombarding me with questions and statements. I don't know, it feels... weird.
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I felt cared.. C....C always cared. C didn't want me to go, so did A and B. But C, I don't know! Everything just happens weirdly!
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I don't know if I should regret writing it... I felt sorry, I apologized to C. C told me not to apologize because it wasn't wrong. I apologized, I felt bad... C cared for me... It felt really great...
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I don't know if I still want to die... I'm always ready though... Kill me in the fastest way possible... I don't know... These three made me think about it.... I don't even...
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