A Letter (Short Parts)

A few days ago, I decided to make a letter. It was for three people I've grown to love. Let's name them A, B, and C.
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A, I knew this person for more than a year. This person, we had conflicts and all those, but we still love each other.

B, this person could have been my first ever best friend. We share a lot in common and I don't know why I can't have this person as my best friend.

C, we only became close during this break. See how amazing this is? I love this person even if I don't know much about C.
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The letter contained a lot of my feelings. I didn't know what to do and I didn't know who to share my feelings with, so I shared it to them.
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I'm just too serious for them, I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm just destroying their happiness. Why do I feel like this?
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I cried myself to sleep after I wrote that letter. I really made myself wake up late, so I wouldn't see their messages. I'm sure that they'll be bombarding me with questions and statements. I don't know, it feels... weird.
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I felt cared.. C....C always cared. C didn't want me to go, so did A and B. But C, I don't know! Everything just happens weirdly!
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I don't know if I should regret writing it... I felt sorry, I apologized to C. C told me not to apologize because it wasn't wrong. I apologized, I felt bad... C cared for me... It felt really great...
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I don't know if I still want to die... I'm always ready though... Kill me in the fastest way possible... I don't know... These three made me think about it.... I don't even...
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