August 31

Bonjour! Welcome back to the drunkest blog in the world! I'm actually running out of ideas for whatever I should write down here. I don't feel like doing a story because I'm not good in that. I'm not doing jokes here because it would turn out to be a weird joke. I'm not feeling like I should write about song lyrics or quotes either, I think that would be really weird. Poems? I don't know what my poem should be about, so nope. Sleeping late at night? Is this the best thing I could actually think of? Things I'm reading? Welp, I don't even read books (not unless required) and I don't like reading (I'm sorry to all those book lovers). Anyone care to help? Welp, anyhow, I feel like writing a poem about August 31. Hope it goes well, welp!

08/31/14

August 31

Today was so painful,

To realize I was such a fool.

I believe it's 2:25 AM right now,

And I've realized I've broke my 'vow'.

To wake up later in the afternoon,

Would hearing your family's screams in tune.

Honestly, I barely get any sleep,

And I'd do this with my bare feet.

This early morning,

I was obviously fuming,

Fuming over something that's pretty worthless,

Over a picture that's full of stress.

I didn't even like him,

It was just a lame excuse to fit in.

After years of singing the hymn,

I'd say that I didn't win.

You pretty know who you are,

I'm sorry if I was mad at something that didn't go way too far.

I just don't like his face and all,

Hope you forgive me and let's put down the wall.

After these, not much was made.

I haven't read Good Omens, and this is such a pain.

I should start reading it now,

But, I'm pretty sleepy, so let's not give that a frown.

I hope this summed up my really early morning,

My head's hurting and I'm not kidding.

I'll talk to you guys later in my blog,

For now, I'll just say ciao!

(no fact for now)

Au revoir! :)

The Amazing Day and Weather

Heeyyyyyy guys! I just want to take a little break from all those weird entries I've made, so I've decided to talk about the WEATHER! Yay! Alright, so here it goes:

08/28/14

The weather these past few days are really awesome! I don't know why but I felt 'safer' and 'calmer' around this weather. The weather also help me boost up my confidence (remember the bet brod and I made?), it made me think I'd beat him (#impossible). See that? And guess what? I lost in our competition (the higher grade wins), but still, I feel happy (even if it's a bit weird). I'm already used to losing against him, Charles, Nikki, Roda, or Myra. It's not something I'd actually go crazy about, like what I've said, I only do this for the challenge, because I know challenging myself would do great (whut).

It's been a bit rainy the past few days, and I love the rain. I find it really relaxing, and the rain makes me think of deeper things in life. I don't know why though, it's just that I'm a weird person, and I always like to be in deep thought. Can't blame me for that.

Today is officially Sir Mon's birthday (bwahahahaha)! Another year of being cute and all those. I don't feel like identifying them because they are too many, we all know that. Anyway, just a big happy birthday to him! :D

Hm, also today I think I am now closer to my other classmates (I don't really talk to them). Thanks to that "selfie" joke, I could actually say that we're classmates. Not that I didn't consider them as my classmates before today, I could say that they're part of my ohana now.

I love Lilo and Stitch :D

I'd say hello to them (hello Lucy and Tom! :D) but they wouldn't reply. It feels like I'm just air for them *le cries*. It feels like I'm a nobody, it feels so bad.. Kidding :P But seriously, you guys should reply, because I just want to make you feel happy while staying here! :D 

I don't feel like discussing the 'selfie' joke now, maybe in the next blog? Sure, of course! :D That'll be all for now, ciao!

But wait! There's a bit more!

The Fact in Our Blog:

I love you :D 

*croo croo croo croo*

Wait! That's not a fact about me! Anyway, so the fact about me is that I swear a lot (did I mention it here?). I do that to literally release my bad thoughts. More like bad feelings, but yeah. I swear when I'm confused (which is really often) or when I'm not in the mood. Sometimes, I get into a bad mood and I just swear it off to some people. It wouldn't matter, I mean, most of them know that I swear a lot, so who cares? I'm kidding, I care about it. I would actually like to lessen my swearing thing, but I don't know how. Care to help? Nope? Okay then! :D

Au revoir! :)

Fun, Fun, Fun!

Bonjour! :D 
I'm pretty (and xD) happy today because I didn't have a lot of problems! I only had mini-problems like... I forgot. Honestly, I should have written it here now but I had to do other 'stuff' which occupied my mind. Weird, right? Anyway, I don't have anything to write here (but I already wrote a couple of stuff which are up there) except for my weird happiness. I'll just go through whatever I did today and whatever made me happy.

08/27/14

Today, English class was really fun (when was it never fun?), that made me more happy for this day. Other than that, I really liked our Science long exam, it was A BIT short (:O *for the first time in forever~) and I finished the test (:P), which is something unusual. Did I write it down here that I don't always answer all the items? If yes, then you guys already know this and if not, then I just told you (:P). I'm really lucky (?.?) to answer all because I really thought I wouldn't get to answer all, but let's not base it from finishing the test or anything, let's just wait for the results (*cue silent prayers). Sir Mon said he'd give out the test papers later (yes, later it's past 12 already!) so I'm pretty excited! Also, I made a little deal or bet or whatever floats your boat with my classmate- the one and only brod, Joel! I told him that we'd have a contest (that's the right term I guess) and the contest is about whoever gets the higher score (between the two of us) would have.. nothing. I just like challenging myself to impossible things. Well, it's worth a shot, so I wouldn't care, anyway our bet wouldn't affect my grade (not unless it does, well I hope not). May the smarter one win! (Go Joel! :P)

I'm really excited for the results (so here's an excited face)

In Math class, we had a little talk (we= Myra, Roda, and I sometimes with Jane, Nikki, or Charles). We talked about infinite possibilities! You know, possibilities that are infinite (I have no idea on what I'm saying). I told them that there are no infinite possibilities, that 'infinite' possibilities still boils down to 'one' possibility. It's like, there are more than a trillion possibilities but it still boils down to the simplest possibility. Hm, it's like those other possibilities (the 'infinite' one) are possibilities that aren't 'simplified' and/or it has just a different perspective, BUT it still goes down to the simplest possibility. For example, a braid (the style of hairstyle), there are many possibilities of doing the braid, but still after all those, it's still a braid. Right? I wish you guys understood because it's so hard to explain, but you would understand it, I gave an easy example (I guess). Even if I already 'proved' my point, they kept insisting that there are infinite possibilities, so, who am I to do anything else? I have my point and they have their own, so let's just not make an issue out of that.

After all these, we went to the library for some 'stuff'. I actually did nothing there, except for having Joel to tell me what to do or if I understood our science presentation. After all those, I decided to have a little fun in the library (WHICH I KNOW WE'RE NOT SUPPOSE TO DO, SO DON'T DO IT TOO). Jane has this app on her phone, but I will not mention the app's name because I forgot it too, so let x represe- wait what? Kidding (:P), let the app name be App. So App included things to do with love, I think it calculates if these 2 people match. I had fun so I typed down pairs that I found cute (you know, love team). I'll just put it in a proper way:

App's results:
1) N and E= 96% (if I remembered right)
2) N and J= 19% (so sad :( and again, if I remember it correctly)
3) J and J= 100% (this one I remember correctly :P)

I freaked out for pair #3 because, look! It's a hundred percent! How cool is that?! I ship that ship so hard, that, that ship would sink faster than Titanic (<- dumb thing xD)! I ran around the library (actually just around the farthermost table) and I became happy! Great thing that the librarian didn't get mad, I'm so lucky and happy! (:D) Aside from that, today in music class (piano :D), Nikki (:P) requested T. Jaenna (or Jaena, I'm sorry, I'm not good with this one) to play River Flows in You. We all know that song is the 'feels song'. I then said, "Welcome to the feels trip!" Chanting that one again and again (some weird magical spell). They began teasing me because of reasons (reasons you obviously know :P), but what's wrong with smiling when hearing that song? I now want to quote the best quote in the world (from the song Love on Top):

"Now everybody asks me why I'm smiling out from ear to ear." - Beyoncé Knowles

See? And yes, they asked me why I was smiling. I smile rarely (we all know I'm joking :P), so shouldn't they be happy? Anyway, I don't think anything is wrong, not unless there is something wrong, but as far as I know, there's none. So I will end it here (a formal goodbye), so long everyone!

The Fact in Our Blog:
I honestly don't remember much from my childhood (thanks to cameras, I could understand more of my 'past'). I base almost all my knowledge from pictures and stories they've told me, weird right?

Au revoir! :)

x

Not So Long

Hey guys! Welcome ba- well, I'm not even making an intro for this entry. I've got nothing to write about (yehey) so I'm not even sure if I'm going to make this one long.

08/26/14

Apparently, there's this new problem I'm trying to solve, no worries, it's not a problem about life or anything, it's just a small problem. Not really a small problem, but it's just a problem I'm having a problem about and it's not much for you to have a problem with too. Did you get that? Because I didn't get that. What I'm trying to say is that, my problem isn't a big one for anyone else to worry about. It's just a little question and it's *drum rolls*:

Is the murderer (narrator) in the story Tell-Tale Heart a woman or a man?

and,

Is the murderer (narrator) insane or sane?

You see! It's not a big problem (or is it), but I want answers to these. ~(^_^)~ I wish someone would answer this one already, so I wouldn't have much problems anymore (see how problematic I am?). I problem about every little problem there is in the world and it sucks (peace!). I'm guessing that's another fact about me (hahahaha) and that will be my entry for "The Fact in Our Blog"!

Another thing I'm excited for but I don't even know why is my teacher's upcoming birthday! I guess by now you would know who Sir Mon (Sir Richmond :P) is right? Well his birthday is on August 29! Guess who else is celebrating their birthday on that day? That's right (I'm kidding, I didn't even hear you, or did you even talk?) it's Liam Payne's birthday! Yehey! Wait you don't know him? He's the guy in 1D, not the curly-haired lad, it's you know, I can't describe him. He's Liam, I don't know what else to say, so I'll just put up a picture of him (down there)

Isn't he lovely? <3

Sir Mon's face would be up here when it's his birthday, wait for the cutest face you would be seeing in your whole life! That's all for today now to the...

The Fact in Our Blog:

I problem about all the little things. I actually sometimes problem about things that aren't really 'problems'.

Good night everyone! :O (<-- yawn)

Au revoir! :)

Not Much of A Day

Bonjour! Welcome back to (myself) the weirdest blog in the world! It's been a few days since I posted, but nothing much happened the days I was out. There's not much to write about today, yesterday, the day before yesterday, or two days ago. I've got no problems for the past few days and it's weird. So I guess I'll just talk about what I did for the past few days.

08/25/14

YESTERDAY (All my troubles seemed so far away)

Yesterday, I (with family members) went to Cavite (yehey, dream come true). I had to wake up early (at around 8:45) to do all my morning stuff. I was really sleepy because I slept late the night before out trip (yes, I know, it's my fault) and guess what? I didn't get to sleep on the way to our destination. Here's a picture while we were travelling:

 We went there for the baptism of my cousin (*sigh* babies everywhere), and not much happened. The baby kept crying when he was awake and after crying, it just goes to sleep. Very great, right? The food at the reception (if that's the right term) was okay. I'm not saying the food didn't taste great, it's just that- yes. I don't know what else to say about the food, it's just in the right standard (is that the right term?). I took pictures of the clouds and a red insect (a dragonfly), but I will not show the pictures because there's some problem with my phone and our internet connection. We went home at around 4-5 o'clock and I took a nap. I woke up having a headache, which didn't make my day better. I slept at around 3 o'clock AM because JF and I watched this really cool movie called "In The Dark". It's about a blind woman and a weird caretaker. This movie isn't a romance movie because it was more on thrill-er and horror. It turned out the caretaker liked the blink woman, but in the end, the caretaker dies (I don't know, it seemed like it though). Pretty romantic right? (ha-ha-ha) Anyway, that's it for yesterday, so let's go to today! 

TODAY

Today is National Heroes Day (yay)! Who's your hero? My hero-es are my family. That includes my teachers, my parents, my siblings, my lolo's and lola's, and my classmates. They're my hero, because without them (especially my teachers and parents) I wouldn't be here anymore. If it wasn't for them, I would be long long gone. They are my reason to still be alive even if I wouldn't want it anymore. Thanks to you guys, I'm still here, alive and continuing to try my best to not let you guys down! 

Aside from that, nothing else happened today. I'll end it here, without a picture (maybe next time, it's already a bit late).

The Fact in Our Blog:

I like Adobo. Anything and everything that's related to adobo, like: adobo rice, adobong baboy, adobong manok, adobo sauce, adobo scent, adobo t-shirts, adobo songs, adobo everything! I could actually live for more than a week with just adobo (and water :P).

Good night everyone

Au revoir! :)

A Short Notice

Planning to do something extra weird and great. I wish you would be prepared for this :)

I'll type down a short poem since I like poems.

Untitled

Is this what we are?
Just two friends that won't go far?
This may sound dumb and all,
But are we even friends to call?

We don't actually get together,
When we're together, we're like frustrated weather.
They always thought that we were close,
But what they don't know is that we both think we're gross.

At times we would actually settle down,
During those times, we would never give a frown.
We were like the best of friends,
With no ends.

But what happened to those?
I guess we chose to burn this close.
I wish you luck in life, until we meet again,
I guess for now, this will be untitled.

Another one:

Blinking

With just a blink, a lot could happen.
Someone may sneeze, smile, lights would turn off, or die.
But with my blink, the worst had happened,
You walked away from my life without a goodbye.

A Short Entry

Bonjour! Welcome back to my blog! This entry wouldn't be long, so guys, this would be real quick, no worries. 

08/20-21/14

Today was a fun day, I don't know if I'm being honest or not, but I'll just put it here. English class was extra fun today, laughter would be heard after almost every sentence or word. The funniest moment today was the whole period, I can't choose, but I guess I will. The best moment was when Ms. Yo asked us what combine was. Myra and Roda (and I, I guess) clapped our hands putting it like a symbol of combine. Let's say the left hand would be a word or a number or something and the right would be the other word or another number, if you 'clap' you hands, it would indicate that you 'combined' the words. Our class cracked a few jokes about that 'combine-clap' thing and that made today pretty fun. I guess there was no more fun moments today. 

Also, since I'm following brod (Joel) in here, I checked out his blog entries. I liked the latest one (Depression 2 is the title I think) because it was about depression. He shared a link to a video in YouTube and that video talked about what's happening inside a depressed person. Turns out the hippocampus becomes smaller when you are depressed. The hippocampus is the part of the brain that is involved in memory, forming, organizing, and storing. It's like, if you are depressed more often, the smaller your hippocampus becomes, in which would cause you to have short-term memory. This actually explains a lot of things in my life, and thanks to Joel, I found my answer.

Apart from the ones above, nothing else that was interesting happened today. I guess another 'thing' was added to my jar of depression, and it's the same old problem. I need someone that can help me with this because I can't do it myself. You're probably thinking right now, "But you haven't even tried," I tried, trust me, and it didn't work out well.

I'll end it here because I said this would be a short one. I'm not putting the Fact so, I guess I'll give out 2 facts in the next blog. Until I write again!

Au revoir! :)

The Weird Entry

Bonjour! Welcome back to the best and worst- at the same time blog in the world! This entry wouldn't be much on drama, so sit back and I wish you wouldn't fall asleep while reading this!

08/19/14

Today has been an emotionally weird day! I cried a few hours ago because I couldn't handle my problems anymore. And right now, I don't feel like talking about. Can I just write one blog entry with drama? I'm getting tired physically, mentally, and emotionally. So now, I've decided that this will be my first drama-free blog! 

Well, there's not much to talk about today, just a few fun things. Actually, there wasn't anything fun that happened today. There was this one thing that made me laugh and- *sigh* actually there's none. I guess my blog is a bit boring without my problems, eh? I guess, I could share something I realized today.

I realized that my classmates and teachers are like my real family too. Whenever my parents aren't here, I have them. They aren't my second choices, because my family was never my second choice. Just like what I said, I consider my classmates and teachers my real family, they aren't just my 'extended' family or 'second' family, they just feel like my real family. They made me feel loved, just like how my family makes me feel like. Whenever I have a problem, I could approach either one of my classmates or a teacher, and a talk with them could solve everything. I could say I do this a lot, because first of all, my mom isn't here in the Philippines. Also, I don't want to stress here out when she comes back here, because I know she is really stressed from work, and her vacation here is bonding time, not drama time. And second, my dad gets home late from work. I also don't want to stress him out because the only time I could spend it around him are on Sundays (in where I usually wake up at the afternoon, which lessens our time together). I can't do this with Jeff because he wouldn't understand me, and with my big brother, he gets home late too. His schedule at school is really tight, he leaves early in the morning and gets home late. Though it's fine, because sometimes he brings home food and I guess this is what I could call 'bonding' time with him.

I love my family a lot, and same goes to my classmates and teachers. They (the three groups I mentioned) mean a lot to me, and I wouldn't care if I don't matter or mean anything to them, just as long as they would know that they are important to me, it wouldn't matter. You don't have to reciprocate the feelings because, I don't really care. If I don't matter to you, but you matter to me, I will forever care about you. If I am annoying to you, and you start to hate me, but as long as you matter to me, I will still love you no matter what. I may not look like the kind one, but when we talk about these, I could get very protective, very selfish, and very emotional. I just want to be honest with everyone, I could get really selfish when we talk about this. I said this once, "What is mine, is mine. I do not like to share, especially when talking about love."

That's my realization for today, I wish you guys would take time to read it, because they are all true. Also, to know if you are special and if you matter to me, you just need to feel it. My gestures (not romantic gestures, seriously) towards you would be a little better than usual, my smiles could get really big, and you just need to feel it. Now, if you think you are special to me, don't worry, you are. If not now, you will be. It just needs to take a little time, and then one day you'd notice my different gestures. Once you've earn my respect and trust, you are special to me, even if I haven't earned yours yet, when you've earned mine, that's it.

Now guys, I've got a quote to share, it's not in a picture because I wrote it down (actually typed it down) from a book, a yearbook to be exact. It's from our yearbook 2 years ago (if my calculations are right), and this one is said by my adviser 2 years ago, who is Sir Richmond (if I remember it right, again). 

So here's the quote:
"Pursue excellence. Do your best in everything. Do it as if your life depended on it."

I can't decode what the quote means, but I think the quote meant that you should do your best at all times, like you won't live the day after. Or, that you should do your best at all times or you will die. Well, not literally die, but if you don't do your best at all times, you would just stop living, which is like the same thing. *sigh* I can't decode what it means, I'm just so dumb right now.

That quote inspired me the year after (Grade 7), because we all know I'm not good in my studies. I was inspired by the quote because Sir Richmond is also included in those people I idolize. I idolize all my teachers, my classmates, and family members, so it's not much of an issue. This quote made me actually believe myself more, and it did something great to me that year. I finally got a grade higher than the range of C's for English, and I got a good grade in Math (for probability only). It made me happy, and I wish my teachers were also happy.

This is done, I guess. I've got the warm up (introduction), the 'problem' (body), and the quote/picture of the day (body/small conclusion). I wish you would actually read this, I know it's so long, and it makes it boring, but I can't just summarize this. This is my day-ly (get it?) kind of journal, in where I tell how my day went and all the others. Now, let's go to the:

The Fact in Our Blog:
I like people who play instruments (mostly, the piano and/or the guitar) and those ones who sing. I don't know, but I feel like I've known someone for so long when they know how to play the piano or the guitar. If for some people, actions speak louder than words, for me music speaks louder than both.

I'll end it here, have a great night everybody, until we meet again!

Au revoir! :)

More Than Useless

Bonjour! Welcome to saddest and weirdest blog in the world! I guess I'll talk about the normal things- which are my problems. I honestly don't know what else to write here, I'm actually thinking about putting up a picture and share my thoughts on whatever that picture is about. And I think I'm going to start it today, and I might do that before ending my blog, would that be great? Oh, also I'm thinking about writing about things I found interesting today, so maybe I could put this one before my problems, just to warm things up. That'll be cool I guess, so let's start this mes amis!

08/18/14

Today was my brod's (Joel) birthday! I started calling him brod today because I thought it sounded unique, like his unique loyalty and personality. Well anyway, happy birthday brod! Just like what I said, I wish you would find your happiness, or I wish your happiness would find you already.

Today was also our first Social Studies quiz. It was hard as hell! But it was great that I answered all even if I don't do this usually in Social Studies classes. This quiz was really unusual for me, because like what I said, I finished this and I answered all. Also, because I actually knew (not really knew, like recalled) everything WITHOUT REVIEWING. Isn't it weird? And when I say this, I'm being honest. What I did was browse, I didn't even get to read everything in my notebook, and yet I answered all. I'm really proud of myself, in this way I could say that I am improving, either through the hard way or the easy way.

Oh how can I forget! Today's English class was really fun! It was so hilarious because Roda (<-- my classmate) acted like one of those famous actresses on television. She 'acted' Kris Aquino, the (younger, I think) sister of the Philippines' current president, President Benigno Aquino III. Roda not only copied how Kris actually acts, but she also did copy how Kris says words. The way she pronounces them are really funny, I wished I actually took a video of it, so whenever I'm down and all, I could give it a click, and the next thing I know is that I'm laughing my ass off.

One more was during our Science class. We had a couple of minutes to eat (or party, but more on eat) because like what I said, it was Joel's birthday (refer to the first paragraph after the date). After eating, we had lessons and that. When we were doing our seat work, Sir Mon (it's actually Sir Richmond, I just like to type down 'Mon') went to the back and started singing a weird song. If I remember correctly, the lyrics were:
How much is that dog-gy (or dog-gie, or whatever you feel like spelling it) on (or in) the window? Aw, aw, aw, aw (<-- dog barks).

He kept singing that until me and a few friends got attached to the song. It's actually pretty catchy, and until now, I have that song in mind.

The warm up is over, let's proceed to the real thing (*evil laugh*)!

This day is the worst one I had- yet this school year. Imagine being so happy while getting in your classroom and this one classmate of yours barges in and slams the door (this is so Elsa of Frozen). I mean, really dude? You just had to barge into my happiness and made my world darker. If ever this lad has a personal problem, then please just not put it in school (even though I do that sometimes, but I don't barge in and slam the door)? School life and other life is different, not unless they are the same, but then- yeah. Anyway, dude, I know you could read this, just please let your stress out outside of school? I'll even help you, just stop connecting both, okay? Then we're settled with this!

This second one is really an unusual problem, I mean, it's normal (for me, I guess). I just thought of some questions, well these questions runs through my whole mind all the time, so it isn't much of a bother. So the question are:


What if our purpose in life was to find our purpose?
and,
What if I didn't exist in this world?

Well, I haven't found the greatest answer for both questions, but I think I have an answer to the second one, and here it is:
If I didn't exist in this world, I honestly think that my teachers would have less headache, that my parents wouldn't have to handle 3 naughty kids, and my classmates not having to worry about this weird girl at the back who does nothing else but to rip off people. You see, if I didn't exist, I think this world would be great, I'm just not sure if everyone else thinks of that, but it wouldn't matter, because I've made up my mind, and this is what I think it is. 

Well, I guess I need to cut it of- oh wait, yes, the picture! Alright just refer to the picture below, or somewhere, I don't know, but just refer to it.

So, this is something I saw from Facebook, I saw it from Sir Richmond's (Sir Mon) status and I think this hit me in the feels. It is true, that not everyone will appreciate what you will do to them or simply, what you will do. Also, it is very hard to segregate (such a deep word) those people who are worth your kindness or those ones who abuse it. I just wish everyone I know would be not abusing my kindness towards them, I may not be kind all the time, but that doesn't mean I never will be kind to you or I never cared about you. This is something everyone should know, and I wish you guys learned something from the picture above or below or left or right.

Well, that's about it, this one is a bit long, just please take time to read it, it's fun to read and might be boring cause I keep narrating, not much on comedy, but bear with me because I'm in the stage of depression, well I've always been here, but this is just taking a bit way off the charts. So here's my not much creative name, but it's worth a shot!

The Fact in My Blog:

I write a lot of poems, like seriously, A LOT. If you'd borrow my laptop right now, my desktop would be filled by word documents and most of them are about poetry and all that. I'm a sucker for poetry, and I like poems who rhyme, I think poems without rhymes are like non-sense statements (no offence to those poets who write without rhyme). I just find it weird, so if you'd ask me to write a poem for you, expect your poem to be full of rhymes!

That's my fact for today, and here comes the French word (I haven't thought of a creative name for this)!

Au revoir! :)

The Return of the Pessimist Blogger

Bonjour! Welcome back (to me) to the most excellent (pessimist) blog in the world! It's been 3 (I think) days since my last blog, and I've promised a lot in the past 2 blogs so here I am! I'm going to do whatever I promised in all my previous blogs and I wish I wouldn't promise anything else because we all know I can't keep or remember all my promises. Wait, you guys didn't know? If so, that would be my fact for today (*evil laugh*)!

The promises I promised:

1. To explain why I am a pessimist
2. Share another hilarious story when I didn't have a problematic day

So, let us start to do this!

08/17-18/14

I'm a pessimist, because- I really don't know. Maybe from all those dark thoughts, I decided to be a pessimist. A pessimist would be someone who thinks about the negative first (I think this is the simplest meaning of a pessimist) and this meaning describes my whole life. Of course, when I was younger, I was an optimist. I mean, be scared of a child who is a pessimist. Children (like children from ages 4-9) holding knives or be all emo (<-- emotional), that would be really creepy. I wouldn't put a picture because I couldn't find one and because I don't want to edit things like that (also the fact that I don't have Ps here on my laptop).

I think being a pessimist is nothing wrong. It's always better to consider the negative things first before the positive ones. When you think of too much positive things, you would just explode and forget about the consequences. Then, after being oh-so-happy, you get to the consequences part where you just get hurt so much. After being hurt, you become really down in life, but since you are a positive (optimist) one, you would have tons of other hopes, which makes you're first crushed hope not matter. You see, if you are an optimist, you never run out of hopes and all those, unlike being a pessimist, you would always drown yourself in your mistakes and depression (or is this just what I think it is). If you are a pessimist, then become a pessimist, and if you are an optimist, become an optimist. Don't let anyone judge you for being either of those, just be yourself. That would be really great then.

The other hilarious story was during math class. Well, I think I was the only who found this experience hilarious out of all my classmates. So the story starts this way, 

~FLASHBACK MUSIC~

In the first few minutes of math class, we had to check our homework. In my homework, I got 12 out of 18. Cool right? The homework had only 3 questions and each question was worth 6 points, if I remember right. So after checking our homework, Sir Pierre (our teacher) told us to get a blank paper. It was pretty exciting because it was either a seat work or some fun game (or activity, or whatever term floats your boat), and of course, we played a game! We had a few personality tests, and it was fun! Three personality questions made us have no more time for lessons. The hilarious part was that each question was pretty funny. The answers for the questions were funny, like- well I'm not even planning to mention it because it's kind of weird. But anyway, the funniest one was all the question, but what caught my attention was the last question. Here's how it was:

Think of someone (who also knows you and is important to you) that you can relate to the following colors (do not repeat you answer twice.) Name just one person for each color.

Colors:

YELLOW

ORANGE

RED

WHITE (it's black because you wouldn't see it if it was white (racist comment)

GREEN

And here are the names I wrote for each color:

YELLOW- "Ah!" (don't kill me for writing 'Ah!' down, it's what I wrote on the paper so, I just want to follow it)

ORANGE- Family (yes I know, just one person, this one totally went off my mind)

RED- Sir Richmond

WHITE- Parents (same like family, but I can't choose between my mom or dad, so I take both)

GREEN- Miss Luz

Do I still need to explain why? Well anyway, here are my explanations on why they're the people on the colors:

1. I think yellow serves as the sun, and the sun gives me energy or light. Or yellow could be happiness, so you might know why I wrote "Ah!" down.
2. I don't know why I put them in orange, maybe because I have issues with them, and orange seems like a great color to put it into. Orange would be like anger and happiness at the same time, so my family is like that.
3. I put Sir Richmond in red because he likes the color red, it's his favorite color as far as I know.
4. I put white because it's peace and purity (so deep). And my parents are like my gateway to peace and purity.
5. I put Miss Luz in green because she's a biology teacher (that's what I know) and because our room is so green (she's our adviser), so she kind of reminded me of the green color.

Now, I'll tell what the each color represents:
YELLOW-  Someone you will never forget

ORANGE- Someone you consider your true friend

RED- Someone you really love

WHITE- Your twin soul

GREEN- Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life (due to past- good or bad- experiences, lessons, etc.)

The reason why I laughed was because of the results. I mean, I expected the red one because it's really obvious (red for love!). The yellow made me blush (I don't know, but I felt my cheeks go hot when I saw that) because my friends know the reason why (*insert laugh*). The others were pretty normal, so I wouldn't much bother. After seeing these, I talked to my adviser (Miss Luz) and that's how my other blog happened.

~END OF FLASHBACK MUSIC~

That's all for today everyone, I guess you guys would like this after reading this long blog. Not much happened the past few days, so I'll just did what I promised! Let's proceed to the Fact and the French word!

Fact about Me:

I'm starting to think about a new name for this part, so I guess I need to ask for help. Anyway the fact is:

I don't promise a lot because I sometimes (wait, always) forget about my promises or I tend to forget it. 

I wish you guys enjoyed that fact about me, now let's go to the French word (I'm also thinking about a new name for this)!

Au revoir! :)

The Not Problematic Day

Bonjour! Welcome back to the weirdest and most problematic blog in the whole universe! This day didn't have much problems so I guess, I'll just write down my realizations and the hilarious moments that happened today! How about we start with my little problems then proceed to the other two? Okay? Alright!

08/13/14

Honestly, today didn't have any major problem. I think I just let my family members down after making my choice. I don't want to elaborate on this one because it's just sad. I feel guilty for all this, but I need to follow whatever my heart says (well, more like my brain). A question I would ask is:

Do we pursue things for the sake of everyone else's happiness? Or would you stop it there for your happiness?

Just think about it, that is my situation. And for reasons, I stopped it right there for my happiness. It's not actually my happiness, I did because I know I couldn't do great in whatever they would be happy with. I say this every time, I do this because I am scared to fail everyone.

Some of the hilarious moments of this day was when I talked to my adviser. It was a funny talk, because first, she told me I was tall and second, because she asked me if I had a boyfriend. Of course, I'm a good person (<-- this one's a lie) so I didn't lie on this one. I said no, and laughed. She then said, "That's good! How about inspiration?" It took me a few seconds to think of an answer and when I came up with one, I said, "Inspiration? Yes, I have an inspiration, and he's around here." She looked at me and told me, "Good, keep him as your inspiration and never as your distraction." This one made me smile and laugh in a weird way, because we all know he is my distraction and inspiration. When I realized what she said, I told her, "Distraction? I think that's impossible."

"Why is that so?" She asked.

"Because he is around here, and it distracts me all the time." 

"Then try to stop yourself from making him as your distraction."

"How?"
"By creating a wall between you two."

A wall? I thought.

"A wall, miss? How?" I blurted out.

"You should stop thinking about him all the time. Only think about him, when he is in front of you. If he is not in front of you, don't think about him."

I liked what my adviser said, she's right. I should stop, but how?

"I will try, miss. Anyway, which class are you going to?" I asked her and she told me she was going to Grade 9. I told her I'd pay Grade 9 a visit and she allowed me to. Being me, I opened the door for her and smiled. I took a few glances at the room and bid farewell. I ran back to my room and told a friend about what she told me. It was great to know that there's someone I know on who could help me with this. And I'm glad I have Miss Luz as my adviser, it's a great feeling.

I'll stop here for now, hopefully I'd share the other hilarious story in the next one. Off to the French word and a fact!
Fact about Me:
I do ice skating.
French word time!

Au revoir!

Day 2 (not a creative title)

Bonjour! Welcome back to the best-est (don't worry, we all know that isn't a word) blog in the world (and we also know that this isn't the best)! Just like what I said in my first one, there's never a day without a problem. Which means, this would be another blog with me, discussing my problems (cue the 'hoorays' and 'claps')! So let's get this started!

08/12/14

Today wasn't an unusual day. If you'd ask me what's an unusual day, that would be waking up perfectly to the chirps of the birds, where you get out of your house with a big smile because you didn't get shouted at, and of course, when you do everything perfectly at school. Today, I literally woke up to the screams of my guardian and the heat of the room (my guardian apparently knows my weakness, which is to turn off the fan to make it hot). My breakfast was a normal one, not too much rice and noodles. When I entered the restroom or bathroom or whatever it is called, I kind of took more than 25 minutes, which caused me to be a little late. We went out at around 7:05 (which is not that late). I didn't have a lot of problems yet, until the last period came. I should be happy because it is the last period for the day, but no, I felt really sad and worried, I mean come on, it is English after all.

English was pretty normal, nothing unusual happened, until I had to present. This is something I don't really like, because, one: I can't express my ideas well, even if I have practiced it for a million times, and two: because I can't speak in front of the class. I stutter (well, I don't really stutter) or get mental blocked when I see my classmates staring (staring is exaggerated) at you, waiting for you to explain what you have in mind. Not only that, your teacher is also there to watch you, and this, is very intense. It's because you are either prepared for your teacher's question or not, and for this presentation, I am the latter. 

Walking up in front of class unprepared (unprepared for the teacher's question) is like being a lawyer going to the Court without reviewing, seeing, or have heard the case (weird example). And as I said my two main reasons on why I don't like doing these, it happened awhile ago. I was mental blocked and I kept repeating the last words I've said. Oh, have I mentioned? I also say 'um' and 'ah' A LOT when presenting. After presenting with my partner, I knew we were getting a low grade on this one. It made me feel really bad because I know my partner did his job properly, and I didn't. This made me feel bad because I've let my team down, and I know I'm going to lead them down more often this quarter.

During the discussion, family and rewards were mentioned. When my classmate said that rewards don't stay with you until the end of the day (or forever) but your family does. I know this is really disrespectful, but I couldn't help but scoff in disbelief. This is really unusual for me, but even I couldn't believe I did that. It was a great thing no one else heard whatever I did or say, or else I would have just died in front of my class. When they also mentioned family and inspiration and motivation and etc, I teared up a little. I've got my issues, and I couldn't help but think on what the story was suppose to teach us. Minutes after that, I fell into silence and just copied notes. The rest of the time made me think of what the story was suppose to teach us, and while I stare down on the cracked floors, I realized that family is important.

The bell rang, and I still couldn't figure out what else the story had to teach. But my train of thoughts were cut-off when the officers (that includes me) needs to discuss something. So, we- officers had to discuss about the fund. We came up with ideas on how to do these and how much. In almost every offence you make, you have to pay from the range of P3.00-P20.00. In this way, we said that we would "achieve" discipline and a lot more. When we finished discussing, we headed off to the Creativity Room (I think that's what it's called), to do our homework and to discuss some more. In the Creativity Room, I listened to my group mates for our Filipino group work. We are suppose to do a tale, and it should be about bullying or anti-bullying(?), I forgot, but it's something like that. So my group mates and I started discussing ideas. While I try and suggest mine, they would say it isn't good or it's weird. So I kept my mouth shut, well actually I fought for my idea, but guess what? Mine lost, so I am forced to listen to the 'first idea' my group had. I wanted my idea to be used, so I suggested it to the other group. The other group said that it was worthless. I was hurt when the other group said that, I just wanted to help them by giving them my idea, but they didn't try and hear it out. 

I went home, nothing much happened. I am here again, sitting on our red long couch, chilling and talking to friends asking for dramatic answers- again. And here I am, ending this again with a French word. But first, a little fact about me!
Fact:
I am a pessimist because I realized that this is better than being a happy person. I'll explain further in the next blog (tomorrow)!
French word time!

Au revoir! :)

A Little Peak to My Problems

Bonjour! I do not know what to write in here, so I guess I could share my depressing life stories, and some of my thoughts on other interesting things I find in the internet.

08/11/14

This is such a depressing Monday for me. There is never a day without a problem, but this day is just absolutely a blast full of problems! As much as I want to shout a lot of not-so-great stuff to my problems or those who created my problems, I can't. I still have respect for them, and I hope they'd respect me too. 

I have so many problems in life, and most of these problems lead to really dark thoughts. Most of the problems are about everything, literally everything. And today, more problems have been added to my collection. 

My first problem is something to do with teasing. I mean, what's wrong about finding people with dimples cute? That's my opinion, and I like people with dimples. I find them cute, well I don't like them romantically, as said, I just find them cute. Apparently, people- my classmates- are making a big issue about this. This is why I kind of hate them sometimes. I'm don't get mad at them or anyone easily, but this thing just kind of blew it. Plus, I am sick today, so whenever I am sick (or even if it's just a headache) I get mad easily.

The second one would be people not believing in my capability. I have issues with myself and my environment, and one issue would be like, people not being proud of what I've done great. I've done a lot of great things, like studying to get a higher grade in both English and Math (unfortunately, my science grade remained the same last year {It was in the scale of C's}). And yet, I sometimes think that my classmates are happier than my actual family (though I'm not sure, I just feel like this way). Sometimes, people think I can't do a certain thing that it actually makes me feel so down. In a way, I think they want me to think that I can never do this, nor will I reach my dreams. Tragic it may sound, it's true. 

Last one would be a myself. Yes, I am a problem to myself, I don't even know why! I don't know how to stop myself from thinking those really dark thoughts. But, everyone knows we have different opinions and different perceptions in life. And my perception of this world would be the negative life. All I'm saying is that, why do people want to try and destroy me by trying to bring me down and not be successful, when we all have different perspectives in life? I know this sounds a bit weird but it's true. These just sometimes prove that people could be a bit harsh- sometimes even so harsh- on your opinions, which why sometimes it's better to just keep your mouth shut than blurt out opinions that no one would actually care about. This might sound dense to other people, but I am actually smart. As said, I just keep my opinions shut, because I know people wouldn't mind my opinion. Because others would think that their idea is better than mine, or sometimes they would think that my idea is off the wall.

I guess I have to end it here. Oh, wait, I just want to share a little thing about myself. I always say that I have no favorite song because it changes everyday and it depends on my mood, so right now, I've decided that I will say my top favorite songs! Here they are in no particular order:
- Life in Technicolor II by Coldplay
- Hurts Like Heaven by Coldplay
- Fix You by Coldplay
- The Scientist by Coldplay
- What If by Coldplay
- Araw Oras Tagpuan by Spongecola
- Singapore Sling by Spongecola
- And all the songs in Relient K's album: MMHMM

Hopefully, you guys enjoyed something I shared. I guess I'd be sharing facts about me in every blog I make starting today. I don't know how to end this but, I'll just end it by saying something in French.

Au revoir! :)

Quote:

"Computers themselves, and software yet to be developed, will revolutionize the way we learn." - Steve Jobs

 Meaning:

I think it means that when computers become so good it would change our perception in studying or in learning. It could also mean that in the future, there would be like computers who would replace humans in teaching. Or, it could be that in the future, computers could find a way on how to teach everything faster, like putting in very small chips in our brains that has almost all the information we need to know.