08/11/14
This is such a depressing Monday for me. There is never a day without a problem, but this day is just absolutely a blast full of problems! As much as I want to shout a lot of not-so-great stuff to my problems or those who created my problems, I can't. I still have respect for them, and I hope they'd respect me too.
I have so many problems in life, and most of these problems lead to really dark thoughts. Most of the problems are about everything, literally everything. And today, more problems have been added to my collection.
My first problem is something to do with teasing. I mean, what's wrong about finding people with dimples cute? That's my opinion, and I like people with dimples. I find them cute, well I don't like them romantically, as said, I just find them cute. Apparently, people- my classmates- are making a big issue about this. This is why I kind of hate them sometimes. I'm don't get mad at them or anyone easily, but this thing just kind of blew it. Plus, I am sick today, so whenever I am sick (or even if it's just a headache) I get mad easily.
The second one would be people not believing in my capability. I have issues with myself and my environment, and one issue would be like, people not being proud of what I've done great. I've done a lot of great things, like studying to get a higher grade in both English and Math (unfortunately, my science grade remained the same last year {It was in the scale of C's}). And yet, I sometimes think that my classmates are happier than my actual family (though I'm not sure, I just feel like this way). Sometimes, people think I can't do a certain thing that it actually makes me feel so down. In a way, I think they want me to think that I can never do this, nor will I reach my dreams. Tragic it may sound, it's true.
Last one would be a myself. Yes, I am a problem to myself, I don't even know why! I don't know how to stop myself from thinking those really dark thoughts. But, everyone knows we have different opinions and different perceptions in life. And my perception of this world would be the negative life. All I'm saying is that, why do people want to try and destroy me by trying to bring me down and not be successful, when we all have different perspectives in life? I know this sounds a bit weird but it's true. These just sometimes prove that people could be a bit harsh- sometimes even so harsh- on your opinions, which why sometimes it's better to just keep your mouth shut than blurt out opinions that no one would actually care about. This might sound dense to other people, but I am actually smart. As said, I just keep my opinions shut, because I know people wouldn't mind my opinion. Because others would think that their idea is better than mine, or sometimes they would think that my idea is off the wall.
I guess I have to end it here. Oh, wait, I just want to share a little thing about myself. I always say that I have no favorite song because it changes everyday and it depends on my mood, so right now, I've decided that I will say my top favorite songs! Here they are in no particular order:
- Life in Technicolor II by Coldplay
- Hurts Like Heaven by Coldplay
- Fix You by Coldplay
- The Scientist by Coldplay
- What If by Coldplay
- Araw Oras Tagpuan by Spongecola
- Singapore Sling by Spongecola
- And all the songs in Relient K's album: MMHMM
Hopefully, you guys enjoyed something I shared. I guess I'd be sharing facts about me in every blog I make starting today. I don't know how to end this but, I'll just end it by saying something in French.
Au revoir! :)
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