The Weird Entry

Bonjour! Welcome back to the best and worst- at the same time blog in the world! This entry wouldn't be much on drama, so sit back and I wish you wouldn't fall asleep while reading this!

08/19/14

Today has been an emotionally weird day! I cried a few hours ago because I couldn't handle my problems anymore. And right now, I don't feel like talking about. Can I just write one blog entry with drama? I'm getting tired physically, mentally, and emotionally. So now, I've decided that this will be my first drama-free blog! 

Well, there's not much to talk about today, just a few fun things. Actually, there wasn't anything fun that happened today. There was this one thing that made me laugh and- *sigh* actually there's none. I guess my blog is a bit boring without my problems, eh? I guess, I could share something I realized today.

I realized that my classmates and teachers are like my real family too. Whenever my parents aren't here, I have them. They aren't my second choices, because my family was never my second choice. Just like what I said, I consider my classmates and teachers my real family, they aren't just my 'extended' family or 'second' family, they just feel like my real family. They made me feel loved, just like how my family makes me feel like. Whenever I have a problem, I could approach either one of my classmates or a teacher, and a talk with them could solve everything. I could say I do this a lot, because first of all, my mom isn't here in the Philippines. Also, I don't want to stress here out when she comes back here, because I know she is really stressed from work, and her vacation here is bonding time, not drama time. And second, my dad gets home late from work. I also don't want to stress him out because the only time I could spend it around him are on Sundays (in where I usually wake up at the afternoon, which lessens our time together). I can't do this with Jeff because he wouldn't understand me, and with my big brother, he gets home late too. His schedule at school is really tight, he leaves early in the morning and gets home late. Though it's fine, because sometimes he brings home food and I guess this is what I could call 'bonding' time with him.

I love my family a lot, and same goes to my classmates and teachers. They (the three groups I mentioned) mean a lot to me, and I wouldn't care if I don't matter or mean anything to them, just as long as they would know that they are important to me, it wouldn't matter. You don't have to reciprocate the feelings because, I don't really care. If I don't matter to you, but you matter to me, I will forever care about you. If I am annoying to you, and you start to hate me, but as long as you matter to me, I will still love you no matter what. I may not look like the kind one, but when we talk about these, I could get very protective, very selfish, and very emotional. I just want to be honest with everyone, I could get really selfish when we talk about this. I said this once, "What is mine, is mine. I do not like to share, especially when talking about love."

That's my realization for today, I wish you guys would take time to read it, because they are all true. Also, to know if you are special and if you matter to me, you just need to feel it. My gestures (not romantic gestures, seriously) towards you would be a little better than usual, my smiles could get really big, and you just need to feel it. Now, if you think you are special to me, don't worry, you are. If not now, you will be. It just needs to take a little time, and then one day you'd notice my different gestures. Once you've earn my respect and trust, you are special to me, even if I haven't earned yours yet, when you've earned mine, that's it.

Now guys, I've got a quote to share, it's not in a picture because I wrote it down (actually typed it down) from a book, a yearbook to be exact. It's from our yearbook 2 years ago (if my calculations are right), and this one is said by my adviser 2 years ago, who is Sir Richmond (if I remember it right, again). 

So here's the quote:
"Pursue excellence. Do your best in everything. Do it as if your life depended on it."

I can't decode what the quote means, but I think the quote meant that you should do your best at all times, like you won't live the day after. Or, that you should do your best at all times or you will die. Well, not literally die, but if you don't do your best at all times, you would just stop living, which is like the same thing. *sigh* I can't decode what it means, I'm just so dumb right now.

That quote inspired me the year after (Grade 7), because we all know I'm not good in my studies. I was inspired by the quote because Sir Richmond is also included in those people I idolize. I idolize all my teachers, my classmates, and family members, so it's not much of an issue. This quote made me actually believe myself more, and it did something great to me that year. I finally got a grade higher than the range of C's for English, and I got a good grade in Math (for probability only). It made me happy, and I wish my teachers were also happy.

This is done, I guess. I've got the warm up (introduction), the 'problem' (body), and the quote/picture of the day (body/small conclusion). I wish you would actually read this, I know it's so long, and it makes it boring, but I can't just summarize this. This is my day-ly (get it?) kind of journal, in where I tell how my day went and all the others. Now, let's go to the:

The Fact in Our Blog:
I like people who play instruments (mostly, the piano and/or the guitar) and those ones who sing. I don't know, but I feel like I've known someone for so long when they know how to play the piano or the guitar. If for some people, actions speak louder than words, for me music speaks louder than both.

I'll end it here, have a great night everybody, until we meet again!

Au revoir! :)