Got Nothing To Do

Hiya everyone! Since I've got nothing to do, I'm studying. I'm studying for science because I'm done with my social homework. I don't feel like reviewing for Social Studies because our lessons are A LOT. It's pretty tiring to read, and I'd just get a bit 'bored'. No matter how much Nescafe coffee I'd drink, I'd still fall asleep. COFFEE DOES NOT TAKE EFFECT ON ME. God, please help me! One of the best reasons on why I don't study until a day before the exams. Also, I am pretty forgetful, which gives you another reason on why I don't study. Bwahahahah, but now I'm reviewing. New life, I guess. So right now, I'm reviewing about UCM (Uniform Circular Movement). It's pretty easy to learn but understanding it is hard (what). Another reason on why I'm studying science is because I can't do something in English. I wanted to break down the poem Water Whales (or Blue Whales, I don't know, you guys decide) did. I've mentioned before that I like creating poems, so I guess I also like analyzing poems. The problem is, I don't have a copy of it! So how am I supposed to do that? I don't know! So, I'll just review science, I have to go now, au revoir! :)

Busy and Dead

HIYAAAAAAAAAAA! Is everyone still alive? No one's updating their blogs, and it's pretty weird. Usually, I'd see Myra post something important today, or something she found interesting. Maybe, a bit of Joel's love- science-y things or Roda's stories. I'd rarely see Charles, Nikki, and Jane update, but I find interest in their blog entries, so seeing that they aren't updating is not good. What's happening? Is everyone okay? Are they all busy studying for the quarter exams? Or is it for the upcoming long exams? I'd understand it because, heck yeah there are a lot of exams (really long) that are coming up (upcoming long exams)! It's just weird, and I don't know why I'm complaining about it.

I hope someone would update soon, got nothing to do. You guys want me to study? I'll try. Au revoir! :)

MITIS Treadmills

This one is a short one (for real), I just want to share what happened last June 17. I was in Taekwando summer thing and I went to 7-11 to buy my food. When I realized that I didn't have spoon and fork, I went back to ask one from 7-11. Luckily, they gave it to me for free because I told them that they forgot to put a pack in my paper bag. I then realized when I went back that I actually had them (spoon and fork), so I put up a note that I will pay them 3 pesos the next day. That isn't the real thing though, when I went back from 7-11 (after asking for a pack), I saw Sir Richmond running down the escalator. Perfectly normal? Yes it is, but the thing was, he was running down the wrong side. He ran down the side that was going up, and the escalator was running that time (they were running the opposite ways, which makes the FNET equal to zero; kidding :P). There were Korean visitors and I knew that they thought what Sir Mon was doing is weird. I was just laughing by the main entrance, because I think Sir Mon would be feeling embarrassed after. After his little 'exercise', he asked me to go to 7-11 with him, and I couldn't say 'no' to him, because I wanted to ask him about how he felt. We figured that what he wanted to buy wasn't in 7-11, so we went to Ministop. He bought what he had to buy, and I was just following him. On our way back, he asked me how was life. I said, it was pretty fine, then I asked him the same question. He said that he was also alright, so we proceeded with walking our way back. Later on, he asked me what I would think if I was one of the Korean visitors. I went full honest with him, and told him, "I would honestly ask you first if you are a teacher or student here, then I'd tell you that you seemed like a student and not a teacher." He laughed and told me that something happened so he had to take that way. I then told him that MIT needs to buy some treadmills, he laughed at it once again. When we arrived MIT, I bid farewell because my mom turned out to be there already. I went to where my mom was and she asked me tons of questions. She asked me why I was out, and I just told her that I had to buy food.

It felt great because I didn't really get to talk to Sir Mon during Grade 7. Maybe, I greet him, "Hi," or "Hello," then go back to my room. Sometimes, I would give a little chat, but because I have student duties, I have to end it. I guess for a few minutes, we bonded, you know, something like an Ionic bonds or Covalent bonds (another joke has died). So I'll end this short memory with a quote:

"If life gives you an opportunity to spend time with people, make a great use of your time with them."-Athena Thea, 2014
And I've got one more:
"I'm just kidding, I will end this just like how I usually end my other entries." -Athena Thea, 2014

Au revoir!

Nikki No Sekai Challenge

Hello guys! I've made up a challenge called 'Nikki No Sekai'- well, obviously it is because it's the title. Anyhow, so the thing is just copy the picture from Nikki's blog (nikkifloranne.blogspot.com) and put it here on your blog! Just put in people's names to fill each square. It's that simple, yes, but let's do it! :)

A New Friend: Eline Park

Eline, well, I knew her way before we became friends. I knew her because of Jeff- well, I've just heard about her. Oh and RC, he has some issues with her. Is the term 'issues' alright? Who cares? Anyhow, we became closer during the aleadership Training. Ha, funny because I thought we wouldn't be close. What were the odds?

Someone I can't live without: My mom, dad, and lola

Why? Well, it's simply because I love them a lot. My lola was pretty much the person who 'raised' me. When my parents aren't at home, my lola is there at home. I love them too much to lose them.

You Met When You Were Little: RC Rivera

I've met this guy during Grade 2. He was my first friend here in MIT after I lost my friends at my old school.

The Best Smile: Miss Yo :)
Miss Yo has the best smile because... I don't know why though. It's just that, there's something in her smile that makes you smile (bwahahhaha :P). Even if that smile looks weird or something, it still looks great :) (xD)

You Always Have Fun: Grade 8 Classmates
I can't choose one of them because they equally give me fun. Plus, when we do something fun, it'll be like different categories for each. I have a different way to have fun with Kenny, RC, Mathew, Myra, Roda, etc.

Your Best friend: None :)
I'm sorry, but I choose to not have a bestie :) I figured out that I should just be that one really special friend, like I'm a new type of a friend. That new type is called The Athena Friend, and that's pretty rare :P

"I'm someone people could blow their steam on (that sounded weird) but, anyhow, keri yan. Yan ang purpose ko sa life, to just be like a crying shoulder people would wish they have, a punching bag to punch/kick when they are mad, a pretty dumb clown people would ask to be happy, a philosophy book when someone needs inspiration, and I'm just an anything and anyone to everyone!"

Someone Who Likes Good Music: Machu :3
Well, he knows all the latest songs. Just give him a call and he'd be your Billboard Top 100 :)

Someone You Used To Be Close To: Nikki
I honestly think we aren't that 'close' like before. I can't blame her though, because I know there are other people in MIT that are way funnier, smarter, taller (:P), and just simply better than me. I'm her very long time friend, but I still don't know her favorite color.

The Smartest Person You Know: Everyone
Everyone is smart in their own ways. So I can't compare this guy to this guy especially when they have different interests. What if they have the same interests? Well, you still can't compare them because they have different methods.

Someone You Miss: Jinyi Seo
I'm pretty much still waiting for her to go back here in the Philippines and to study in MIT. Pretty impossible, but yep.

Someone Who Has Nice Hair: Sir Richmond, Miss Yo, and the Librarian
Sir Richmond has this really fun-to-play-with hair texture. If you would touch it, it would be like a bit bouncy. I don't really know how to describe it properly, but yes. Also, Miss Yo has this really cool hair! It's curly and IT'S JUST CURLY! It's fun to touch :D The Librarian has the super-duper most curly hair! CURLY HAIR MAKES EVERYTHING COOLER!

Someone That Makes You Smile On Your Worst Days: Alvin Mioten and Miss Yo
Alvin has this 'thing' in him, that even if you are really sad and all, he could still make you laugh and forget about your problems (not completely though). He's someone you could talk things out with, and he would listen to you. Just something I would ask for when I'm really down. Welp, Miss Yo because I just realize a lot of things when we talk. I realize that I could get through this, and all those. It just makes me smile, and I will still find the reason.

Makes You Laugh A Lot: Grade 8 Classmates
They make me laugh a lot because of the various categories of our jokes. Sometimes, even just the presence of Tom would make me laugh, for no absolute reason. It's pretty weird, but aijsdiajsdn! My classmates is everything you could ask for (except that they aren't food, please don't eat them).

Someone With Gorgeous Eyes: Sir Richmond
Sir Richmond has really gorgeous eyes. I don't really know how to describe it, but it really looks good. One of the main reasons on why I would like to talk to him close-up, to see his really great eyes.
Oh his eyes, his eyes, makes the stars look like they're not shining~ Blah blah blah  blah blah blah~

Someone Who Changed Your Life: EVERYONE :D
Once again, I can't choose just one because they all changed the way I look into life differently. They have different effects, and all those. My parents and teachers pretty much shaped my life.

First Crush: Sir Ecko
Erm, my first crush. I'm guessing he's the only one (for now xD). I don't know, he's just a pretty talented guy. He sings, he dances, he plays the guitar, he plays the piano- I don't know what else he can't do! He teaches one of the most hardest subject in the world- math. He made me cry by giving me an F in math for not getting great grades in quizzes and not submitting my portfolio. After those ups and downs, I still find him great. He isn't as good looking as you guys think, but he has a smile that makes my world- ahsidjansdjnnasjdanjdsa. I can't, and for those reading my blog, just forgive me. I can't, I can't.

The Funny Friend: Charles Opague
My cousin (not for real :P)! He's a funny person to be with. He makes jokes out of everything, and even if it's like a serious thing, he could still crack jokes. He's just like me, really great when coming up with jokes :P

You Can Talk About Anything With: Miss Anna, Myra Arce, and Alvin Mioten
They are just pretty cool people to talk to, and with them you could share anything and all your thoughts. Pretty short explanation, but it's very simple. I mean, it's already explained, so not much to say.

The Prettiest Person You Know: Miss Yo and Miss Iya
They're really pretty :)) Sometimes, it would feel really bad because they are really pretty. Who said I'm supposed to feel bad? Bleh, I'm kidding. They're just really pretty, I can't. 

The Most Handsome Person You Know: Minhoo Kim
Meh, I find him good looking. Not much, but yep. He has the 'looks' I guess, and yep xD

What's Yours?

What's my happiest moment?

I would always say that's it's either when I graduated, when I got a B- in English class, when Jeff graduated and I was there to witness it, when I discovered Sir Richmond was my Grade 6 adviser, and maybe a bit more. Since I mentioned them, I'm going to explain them!

GRADUATION
Why graduation? I didn't expect a lot during 6th grade, why? Because I failed math that year. I never- take note NEVER, failed math throughout my whole life! And to know that I've failed math during the 3rd quarter (you see, I still remember it because it's a nightmare), I lost hope for graduating. 3rd Quarter was a quarter before the final quarter- which is the 4th Quarter (well of course it is one quarter before the 4th quarter, this is why you failed math), and if I failed the 4th quarter, I would be dead. Plus, my other quarter grade sucks, I mean, wasn't great! I had a D and a C I think for the first two quarters, or was it a double D? ANYHOWWW! So, you see, after getting through that depressing story of me failing math, I didn't want to think that I will graduate. Also, I was told that I would have either summer class or after school classes. Which made me feel really down more. I didn't understand why I didn't get summer class or the other choice, I expected that I won't graduate and that I have to do summer class. I'm really weird but, when I was called on stage to get my diploma, I was happy. Happy and proud of myself for that moment (because making other people happy and proud of you is really hard, might as well give yourself the support) because, I GRADUATED! Who wouldn't be happy (*thousands would raise their hands*) after graduating? All your hard work has been paid off, honestly. So for those future graduates, just please study. It'll do good to you and your family. They'll be honestly proud :)

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREVER
A B- IN ENGLISH CLASS?! WHAT?! I know, now calm down :P I got a B- in English class! Hm, this is really unusual for me, you know why? Throughout all the years that Ms. Yo has taught us, I always get a grade from the C range. Last year, I received my VERY FIRST B- in English. I guess studying paid off for that. Don't worry, I will aim for an A this year, and if I don't get an A this year, maybe next year! :D

HIS GRADUATION
Well, Jeff's graduation is actually a funny moment for me. I cried when he approached our table because, just like me, I didn't expect that he would graduate! When I tell him to study, he doesn't want to listen. And apparently, there he was, standing near me, showing off that very proud smile of his, obviously saying, "I did better than you, bleh!" Wait, wait, wait! I meant, "I graduated!" This made me real happy for him, because he doesn't really study. Is it normal to be lazy during 6th grade?

UH-OH
When I knew Sir Richmond was my adviser, I was happy (I don't know, I can't remember. But now that I realized it, I'm happy) because he's a good teacher. He taught us during Grade 5 and I had really high test results. I honestly thought I would be very excited for the new challenge since he is now our adviser and it's a whole new level for our tests. Sir Richmond is known for his REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, LONG EXAMS. He literally made it long, and this would all make us cry. I could survive it if it was just identification, true or false, and multiple choice, but it wasn't. There were problems and essays! You do not want to know what problems he gave us from those problems (wait what, #Problemception). It's really hard, but when you realize why he gave us those really long exams, it would be like such a great thing. It was like a preparation for the next year.

That's all? WRONG! I've got one bonus happy moment, and this is actually my happy moment! BWHAHAHAHAHA! #Momentception

A LITTLE CARE
The past few years, I've been experiencing depression. I want to share you guys...

5 Stages of Something (I don't know what it's called):
Stage 1: Depression
Stage 2: The Feeling of Being Completely Useless
Stage 3: Dark Thoughts
Stage 4: Suicidal Thoughts
Stage 5: Suicide

That's the 5 stages. I've been stuck in between stage 2-3-4. So it's in between those three, maybe the sum of those three, I don't know. But I was once close to Stage 5, when I realized someone was actually there who cares about me. I'm not sure though, but for a reason, I felt like I was cared. It's because I felt like no one actually cares about me and all of those, but during those times, I felt that someone cared about me. That someone actually sees me as a 'somebody' and not the usual 'nobody' (here we go with the Nobody Owens jokes all over again). It felt great, but of course at first, it feels really bad. For the first few days it would hurt like hell, but when you have a person accompanying you until you go down to the lower stages, you'd realize that being close to Stage 5 was actually a stupid idea. I owe a lot to this person, because maybe if it wasn't for her, I would be dead as of this moment. Because of her, I realized what's more into life, and I realized that there are a lot of other people who cared for me, it's just that I block those or them away. I can't do anything to those people who are in Stage 4, because I am there. Sometimes, when someone says they want to kill themselves, etc. I feel like I should tell them that they shouldn't kill themselves. I feel like my purpose if that ever happens is to comfort them, because probably at this way, I could somewhat help this certain person lessen their thoughts.


I don't know what I'm saying, but she said that if I wrote things in my blog, it would help me process my feelings. Forgive me if you guys don't get what I'm writing, but let's just put it in that way. Suicidal thoughts were reminded to me again, and it just triggered. I felt useless again, I felt like the whole world hated me. Maybe this is why I feel like I should sometimes comfort people in this situation, but how am I going to comfort them when I can't do it to myself first? Well, since I'm a person who cares about myself the last, I guess this would be easier. The risks are always there, and I can't. I'll just end this blog with a tweet I tweeted, until next time, goodnight!
PS: I thought about putting a new segment here, and it's called A.W.O.W (Athena's Words of Wisdom). I'll put up random quotes I've said today in random situations, to whichever I remember, I'll put it as the sign for a finished entry. 

"I can't promise you everything would be alright after this, but I will promise this once-and only once, that I will be with you :)"

What do you LOVE?

What do I love? I love a lot of things. For example, I love the time when I am alone. It's because I get to think much more when I'm alone, but the only time I don't like it, is when I'm alone at home. Why? I just feel a bit 'scared' of all the BAD possibilities that might happen to me. Maybe things like, a random fire might start nearby or maybe some robbery, I don't know, but I can't blame myself for that, I mean, that's why I learned Taekwando, to defend myself if those situations happen. So I think I get to 'plan ahead' when I think of the situations.

I love all the little things. From the time someone would give me, even if they are so damn busy. Also, when someone would give me presents- best when it's unexpected. I would appreciate it even if they would just be origami or paper, because I would think that they actually put effort in it. And because it's 3:00 AM, I'll just list down things I love :)

1. I love Science

2. I love English

3. I love Math (mostly probability)

4. I love Social Studies (pretty excited for us tackling the topic of the World Wars)

5. I love Milo mixed with milk (instead of water, put in milk)

6. I love theories (share a theory with me, and I will love you :D)

7. I love poetry

8. I love coldness (I hate it when it's warm or hot)

9. I love comics

10. I love Greek Mythology

11. I love playing badminton

12. I love National Geographic

13. I love playing games

14. I love ticking people off (sometimes)

15. I love being confused

16. I love confusing people

17. I love a messy desktop

18. (But) I love a clean desktop too

19. I love McDonald's

20. I love listening to music

21. I love piano music (especially Yiruma ^-^)

22. I love hearing the guitar

23. I love sunsets

24. I love sunrises (if I catch them)

25. I love writing here

26. I love watching movies

27. I love reading short novels

28. I love watching television

29. I love solving puzzles

30. I love everything and everyone :D

That'll be it most of it? It's a little bit too much, but meh. I forgot what else to write but I'll show you guys a picture of my new desktop! It's pretty clean for a person like me, but, I decided to clean it for good. My old desktop had only 2 more documents before it would be filled, but now, it's all pretty neat. Here's a picture:

Pretty neat right? Anyhow, it's 3:00 AM! WOOHOOOOO! But it's alright, no classes tomorrow, or is that what I think it is. Good mornight everyone, and have a nice day!

Au revoir! :)

Hallucination

HALLU-cination! 

I've been hallucinating today. For example, this morning I thought that someone was calling my name. I was on my way to school when I 'heard' someone call my name behind me. It was like a soft whisper behind me, and when I look back, I don't see anyone. Every time I would go and look ahead again, the whisper starts to get louder and louder. Louder and louder, that the last time it called me, it was not a whisper anymore- it was a yell. It made my ears and head hurt, I knew no one was calling me, but there was this urge- an urge that makes me still turn my head and look back- look back at the busy street in where no one knows me.

Another example would be about the SBA exam. I was taking the exam and I was answering my test from the last number to the first number. When I was at number 31 (not sure with number; or is that what I think it was), I got confused. Because I knew that I already answered 31, but why am I at the same number again? If you're thinking they made a typo, well then, you're wrong. I looked at my answer sheet and I looked back at the questionnaire, and viola! It was number 30! It freaked me for about a second because I read it as 31 real and clear. But when I looked away and looked back, it was a different number.

Am I on a weird drug right now? Because, if I was on one right now, someone please help me get away from these! It's really creepy! Also, this morning, I was singing to the song 'When I Was Your Man by Bruno Mars'. I was in the near end of the song, when this random motorcycle passed by and it was playing the same song. The creepy part was, it was on the same line I was singing at! Spell coincidence!

Today's been a really creepy day! And right now I'm pretty bored, hooray! I'm actually looking for questions because I want to answer them. So I've found pretty hard questions and I want to answer them here! It'll be typed down in 3..2..1...

Question 1:
What worries you most about the future?
A: I worry about how I'm going to leave my mark here on this world. I also worry about how I'll make people proud of me in the future.

Question 2:
In the haste of our daily lives, what are we not seeing?
A: I guess we're not seeing what's important. I guess, in our everyday rush, we stop thinking about how we're supposed to enjoy every bit of our life. Because we will not know when we'll die.

Question 3:
Which is worse, failing or never trying?
A: For me, it's failing. Because if you never tried in the first place, how would you fail? Failing means a lot to me, it's like if I fail something or someone, it would feel like my whole world is broken.

That's three questions for now, I'll answer other questions next time! Until my next blog entry....

Au revoir! :)

Sorry Potter Book

Bonjour! This is just some weird entry, so not much of an intro :P

PS: No books were harmed while typing this entry down.

I've been watching A LOT of movies. Some movies are based on books, some are based on real stories. But, I want to focus on movies that are based on books. For example, the Harry Potter Series. I've watched ALLLLLLL the movies (I watched the Deathly Hollows Part 2 in the cinema :P) and I like it. I don't know how this happened in the book or is it like the book, but with what I've watched, it's good. I tried reading Harry Potter ONCE but I ended up nearly throwing the book Andre just borrowed (I forgot from who). I read a few pages (I think it was 4 pages) before I nearly threw the book.

I'm not a fan of reading things. Wattpad? Sometimes I get tired reading it. Articles? I barely even read them. Other books? Well, it's either I'm required to read them or someone said it's pretty good. 

I couldn't think of anything else. Pride and Prejudice? I watched the movie and I didn't get to finish the book. Or did I even read the book? I did of course, but I didn't finish it. Anne Frank, maybe. I didn't get to watch the movie though, so this wouldn't be considered. Oh of course! How could I forget, The Little Prince! I loved the movie and the book! It's one of my favorites, The book is pretty amazing, and a few days back, I thought, what if the prince isn't true? What if the Little Prince is just the imagination of the pilot? Or what if the pilot is actually the little prince, just when he was younger, and maybe when he would actually fulfill his dream as an artist or something. I think it's pretty impossible though, but I don't really care.

I'm sorry to the Potter book that I nearly threw. It was stressful, so many words and all that! It hurts my eyes! o.o

A Quickee

Oh, one more quickee.

Dear Blogger,

Please stop asking if I'm a robot. I'm too dumb to become a robot.

Yours truly,

Athena :)

The comment section keeps asking me if I'm a robot, EVERY-FREAKING-TIME I would like to comment. It ticks me off, I've been doing that typing those numbers for a lot of times now. I just want it to stop. Please stop :P

One Unserious Thing

This wouldn't be something serious, but- yeap. I read a few blog entries before typing down this one, actually, I just read one. It made me curious, well, it's not that I'm never curious, but- still. Aghh! I can't write things down properly because of this funny feeling xD I find it funny when sometimes you say that you are actually the 'best friend' of this person, but for them, you aren't theirs xD HAHAHAHHA. I asked your best friend a lot of times if you are their best friend, and then that person said that you two are just friends- not best friends. Then, I'd read your blog entry and you'd say that you two are best friends xD To whoever is reading this write now, look, I don't know what I'm typing and I don't get it too. bwahahahaha, I'm pretty out of my mind know, I'm sorry to those that are reading this xD

I can't help but feel something else in your entry. I don't know what it is in English but it's called 'kilig'. I know you two are just 'best friends', but imagine the possibilities? Just like the song "Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat". It's a good song, maybe a fit for the situation. :P I don't know, you decide. Anyhow, it's pretty funny for me. Get ready for loads of teasing tomorrow. Teasing is a part of bullying, call me a bully, it won't really have an effect on me. I am a bully, it's just that, none of my classmates would tell me I am. :PPPP 

Good luck with surviving the day tomorrow, because- and just. bwahahhahahaha

One Serious Thing

Sometimes, I don't even know why I am living in this world. Those mistakes I do, those choices I make- why was I given a chance to live in here? At times, I would actually regret the people I'm friends with, or who my family members are. Then I would think, "Why do I have an environment like this?" 

Some of my thoughts could get really strange, like how I would sometimes think that when people are proud of me, it's because they're forced to. I've mentioned a few examples when I was talking to a friend about this topic. The examples were:

- Parents are forced to be proud of you because that's what they do.
- Teachers are forced to be proud of you because that's their job.
- Classmates are forced to be proud of you because they just want to comfort you.

I honestly think, that the points per each could be mixed up with the others. Actually, they're more like to be the reasons for all my examples. I thought that parents should always be proud of you because- they are your parents. Though, at times your child may do something wrong, you would always be there to tell them their mistakes and later on be proud of them. Same goes with teachers. You need to be proud of your students because it's your job to do so. It's your job to motivate the students, it's your job to 'most-of-the-time' comfort your students when they get a low grade, it's practically all your job. Then again, same goes with classmates. When you would sometimes fail your exams, they would be there to comfort you and tell you that there's another chance, it's because you are classmates, and most of your classmates would be actually doing this. I feel like being proud of me is something people are forced to do.

I actually think my hatred for everything is spreading. I don't know how, I guess I just feel it sometimes. Today, I talked to a friend and I literally blew up our conversation. I kept talking in short phrases while he/she tried to keep the conversation up. I feel like sometimes I act like an ass. A friend called me a 'jerk' yesterday, because I was really in a bad mood that time. Today, I kept talking back with short phrases because it felt bad, even if I knew my friend was right. Sometimes, I get really pissed off, I just blow my anger towards random people. For example, there's this friend of mine who made me really mad, I'd just go scream at this random friend because I had to. When I keep all my anger inside me, in time I will grow some hate for those people who made me mad. So, when that would happen, I would actually scream rude words towards them.

People say, that you should never keep your emotions inside you. It's because, if you keep keeping your emotions to yourself, at this certain point of time, you will get fed up and then you'll just explode. Explode in anger, happiness, sadness, etc. So sometimes, they would say that you should share your problems to other people, so you wouldn't get fed up. In which, I would totally disagree. I would rather keep all my emotions to myself because I don't want anyone else know about my hatred for everything. My anger towards everyone, my happiness towards an object, my sadness in every certain day. I don't feel like anyone else should care about my problems or emotions, I mean, they've got their own, so why care about mine? Plus, when people would actually care about it, I feel like I'm being selfish. I feel like instead of caring for other people's problems, I would actually make them care about mine. Sometimes my problems aren't really that-that. It's like, some people have more problems that are actually something to problem about, and I'm just here, having problems about- these. See? It's not that important, unlike the others.

I promised someone that I will change. That I will actually focus on studies before those social media sites. I think I shall change to fulfill my other promises, like beating Joel at least ONCE in something school related. BUT! I already beat Joel once, based on Sir Richmond. Apparently, Joel and I can't remember when, but it's acceptable. Support me on this one for once. 

The feeling when I actually promised that (the one with me changing) is weird. I want to become something for a better, I guess. I'm already on the process of doing this, and I hope it would be success.

During dismissal time, EJ went downstairs to tell us about theories. His explanation to me was great, but I kept arguing. I didn't want to lower my pride, once I state something, I want my statement to win. Too much pride, I guess. Anyhow, he told me to prove that I exist. Then he told me why we should believe in God. Then I kept complaining, which I don't really get why. But, that's just me. So we kept arguing for a few minutes, then he told me this argument is going anywhere, so we stopped. Until the ride home, he kept telling me about more theories, and it was cool. I get really interested when talking about these things, I know that. I don't think anyone else knows it though.

Our lives would be better without judgement or criticism. Or maybe, those actually make up life. I don't know, you guys decide, because I am pretty complicated.

Azi the Angel and Crow the Devil

The Good Omens

Aziraphale was an angel,

Crowley was a devil.

You see, I started reading our book,

Here's a little poem for you, now look.

Aziraphale is too much of a good-y guy,

His life is just so dry.

At some point I thought Aziraphale was gay,

Don't worry, some other kid in the book already mentioned that, m'kay?

Crowley doesn't seem much of a bad-ass too,

His schemes are just too- boo!

He is a devil, but his acts are too kind,

Is he just like that or is he blind?

Besides all that,

I believe that Aziraphale isn't a great magician.

But turning real guns to water guns?

I will surely invite him to my party and ask him to make me tons!

I've been searching for pictures of the two,

Most pictures are pretty much ships, which is true.

I'm finishing this poem 'cause I'm feel like sleeping,

Good mor-night to all of you who are already sleeping.

Sleeping in Class?!

Bonjour! This is not much of an entry, but I just want to share what happened awhile ago.

09/02/14

For today, we had our long exam in Social Studies. Everyone reviewed, just like always- except for me. I did review a little, but not as much as them. I heard Myra slept for 4 hours or something, and all those. But I just want to talk about my experience awhile ago. No, I didn't stay up late to review, I stayed up late because I watched the Philippines' fight against Argentina (unfortunately, we lost). I've slept for only 5 hours, which is pretty normal for me, but what ever happened awhile ago isn't normal.

The last time I've slept in class was in Grade 6 class. I slept for about 5 minutes, is that counted as 'sleep'? I slept during math class (peace everyone), well math class was about to end and the teacher wasn't facing us, so why not take the chance? Our teacher was writing homework, I guess, and he took a lot of time on that, so I closed my eyes for a bit, and bam! I've 'slept' for 5 minutes. Really fun right? A great thing no one else saw me sleep or else I would have my very first Incident Report that time (which is a bad thing for a Grade 6 student). Now that I've told here in my blog, don't kill me or anything, I come in peace! 

I've got a few incidents where I've 'almost' slept in class. Just like last week, I was really tired and all that, I nearly slept when my other classmates were doing their report. I didn't mean to take a small nap, but when I closed my eyes for a second, I realized I was already head-banging (which means I'm nearly sleeping). 

And for today, I actually slept- for just a few minutes (or that's what I think). I was taking the long exam and just like what I said, I didn't get 'enough' sleep (even if I'm used to it), so I decided to close my eyes for a second, thinking that I will actually get to think of the answers. I then closed my eyes for a second, and the next thing I know is that Sir Melvin tapped my shoulder while laughing (a bit). For a few, I was confused. I mean, I just closed my eyes and this is what I 'wake up' too? That's a little bit too much. It was then when I realized, that I actually took a few minutes to rest. Really, really weird, right? Not only that, I mean I was awake for the morning (just the morning assembly) because we needed to 'exercise'. Nope, nope, nope. The exercise was about certain animals and you have to copy them. Our class was very serious about the exercise, we did it so well, we ended up laughing our asses off. 

Aside from sleeping during classes, another thing happened. Actually, nothing important but I feel like sharing it. Do you guys remember the App I was talking about in the past blog entries (I don't know how many blog entries had passed)? Luckily, I got to play with it again! For today, we (Jane, Roda, Nikki, and I) did 4 pairs and the results are down there (please don't kill me when I get some of the data wrong):

App Results: 

1. J and A- 90%
2. R and T- 16%
3. J and C- 60% (?) (I forgot, I'm sorry)
4. M and J- 90% (Again, please don't kill me if I get some wrong)

All pairs are pretty cute actually. The first pair is the best (bwahahaha) because the 'feelings' are there. Just guess who likes the other, is it A who likes J, or J who likes A. Maybe both, we will never know! On to the next one, it's just that the second pair aren't really 'for each other', so they didn't get as high as the others. The third pair is actually funny because we just 'paired' them up for fun. I mean the girl started it, we just went along with the fun. It turned out to be pretty funny, so we wouldn't mind. The last pair is also the best. This is actually just a joke too, because they are best friends. So whatever they do, nothing 'bad' is put in there.

BUT! They say, that's where it starts. Being best friends. It's maybe because you two know each other a lot, and/or you two get along with each other easily. This leads us to the real point of this part (bleh)---joke. You see that? You see how bad I am at making jokes here?

Nikki said that it's impossible because the two are just best friends. Roda and I said that no, it's actually more possible because you two are best friends. I laughed about this because I've read at some site that at least one of the two (in the best friends) has or had a crush on the other. It makes sense now, right? Anyhow, Roda began singing 'Lucky' by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat (actually just the line: Lucky I'm in-love with my best friend). And because love is nothing but a series of chemical chain reactions inside the brain (whut)- I started singing the whole song, whole-chorus-of-the-song. So, I was singing the chorus with all my power and that, when suddenly, he came out. He. Came. Out. I don't know why I had to separate those 3 words but, yep. Welp, I don't want to 'hope' or be a 'feeler' but I felt like he looked at me. ASDFGHJKL, just let me--- ahbdaskjncnajknckannsdciubasisddcba *smacks face on keyboard*.

Alright, I'm done with that weird smacking of my face on the keyboard, let's continue. I don't know why I felt like it, but let's just let it be (let it be, let it beeee)! Too much questions popped out of my head, questions like:
- Am I singing too loudly? If yes,
- How come no one is complaining?
- Why didn't he go inside the room? Why did he stop and look back? (welp, we were at his 'back')
- How long are we going to take?
- Anyone want some Clover chips?

So many questions, I may take the whole day typing them down. I'll just type down the most important ones^^. After that, we did what we were supposed to do, and we went home. Before that, I've shared my blessings, so I let people take some of my Clover chips. I was sharing them, in short. I've shared them to almost everyone (who wanted, I mean, why force those ones who don't want?) and yep. He also ate some of my Clover chips, so I'm very happy ~(^_^)~ *le happy dance.

ALRIGHT. We're done with all, I just have a last question! Here it is:

Is the word 'whern' real? I only typed this down awhile ago (typo) and I guess I made a new word. So please help me anyone :D

(Whern- where and when)

That's all, I've got to sleep already, goodbaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

Au revoir! :D

Dreams

Bonjour! Welcome back to my last blog entry for August 2014- wait, it's not August anymore Take a look at my PS note. (YESTERDAY) Not much to talk about today because I woke up at around 2:00 PM. I have a surprise topic though, so let's go?
PS: This was supposed to be for yesterday, but I was forced to sleep.

08/31/14-09/01/14

I'm actually thinking about to be a professional photographer. Why? Just like any other person (with the same dream) would explain, it's because I want to express my feelings and thoughts through the photos. I guess I'm not really great in taking pictures, but what's bad about dreaming? I'm really into taking pictures like the clouds, the food (sometimes), people (stolen shots :P) and most of the time, anything I find interesting. If I find you interesting, I'd take a picture of you. If this certain place looks amazing, I'd take a picture of it. I take cloud pictures a lot, that's what I really like. When the clouds look amazing (also if the clouds are dark), no doubt, I'm taking a picture of it. I'm actually saving up to buy a camera, but no matter how hard I try to save, I end up using all of them. Bad luck for this dream then.

My second dream job would be something to do with science. Well, I'm just actually into science. Research about science here, over there, a little bit to the left, everywhere (when possible)! I've liked science as a child (yes, I do remember liking science when I was younger), and until now, I still do like science. I just don't like saying I like science because there are other people better than me in science. Deep inside me  (like my stomach, my large intestines, etc) I have this 'nerd' me for science. I've actually made my own theories (bwahahaha) and they could actually be proven by science. See how great that is?

I could say I'm doing great in my Science class, but they are way better. Who are 'they'? Well, they are Joel, RC, Charles, Nikki, Myra, and Roda. Actually, all of my other classmates, I just find these 6 my top enemies. The first two are really great in science, and it sucks. I challenge myself into beating them, but no chance. We all know it's impossible, so why keep doing it? For fun maybe, or maybe just to make me think that I can do better than them (when I know myself I can't). Charles and Nikki are like the heirs (is that the right term?) of Joel and RC.  The last two are like- I don't know? Warriors? I don't know what to call them. So, if I could beat Myra and Roda first, this means I am doing great and I could beat Charles and Nikki. If I could EVER beat Charles and Nikki, it means I'm really doing great and that I could be in the same level as Joel and RC. Beating Joel and RC is pretty impossible. They're like the Science Kings in our class, and it's weird. I don't even know why they aren't competing, I mean, they should compete for who is the best one out of them. That's a pretty weird idea, but who cares?

In the future, I'd also like to be doctor that deals with amnesia and all that. I could really get crazy when talking about amnesia, it's just that I find the 'sickness' amnesia, cool. I'm sounding really weird, but who cares? I mean, my dream is my dream, it's not yours! 

Next (I guess), I'd like to be a psychologist. I've got weird choices of dreams, right? I mean, I'd like to read people, I would want to know if they are angry, sad, happy, or excited. It's pretty fun, if I'd know how to do that, maybe I'd feel like I'm part of the X-Men. You know, like Professor Xavier (X). It's really cool on how he could get into this certain person's mind and he could talk to them in that way. Do you guys know Professor X? If not, here's a picture of him:

If you still don't know him, he's the bald man on a wheelchair in X-Men. Don't know what X-Men is? Go to Star Movies and wait for the date X-Men will show again. That's how you'd know X-Men.

Lastly, I'd want to be a person creating poems for my whole life. Known as a poet, if that's the right term. I may not get famous for writing poems, but at least I will do makes me happy. Poetry makes me happy. It's that simple, I like poetry, especially the poems that rhyme. It's actually weird because I used to hate poetry. I have no idea on how I liked poetry, I mean, poetry is fun. I actually hated it because I don't like rhyming words, but now what? I like poems with rhymes! Yay!

(TODAY)

That's all for today, oh before I forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RC! Yes naman! Well, dude, I've known you for so long, and yeah! I've got nothing to say, but I'd like to warn you about something, I will beat you someday! Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but I will someday! MWUAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Anyhow, wish you luck in life, and yep. I've got nothing to say actually, so again, happy birthday ol' chap!

The Fact in Ou- wait what? The fact about me are up there, yes, I'm considering my dreams as a fact about me. It's still about me, so what's the difference? So, that's all for my weird blog today, until we read each other again---

Au revoir! :)